Finally a new step in my life.

Before the Happiness, sadness comes first i've gotten a D for my applied chemistry UT, how like that?! terrible terrible is what i can say. i'm so lost in school, i have totally no mood to study for other modules i only like 1 module which is an elective but how can i give up my core 3 modules for an elective, which is like totally silliness lor.

At least this is the last week of school which is week 7 but for the last 6 weeks, my applied chem, signal processing and biomedical instrumentation the daily grades can die man! i want to salvage the situation but how am i supposed to do that? i can't seem to project that good boy and hard working impression for the facilitator i'm at my wits end i feel like just e-mailing them to stop giving me fucking C's! i'm so tired of everything and looking at those grades it is like a discouragement. if my life isn't smooth sailing, if my life in school is good, i would feel so much better but everything is like so rough and bumpy.

However in life when there is down, there will always be up too. i finally found myself a job to support myself and my clubbing cum shopping lifestyle. this means ben is going to be busy, ben can't go down town as often anymore, ben can't meet people as and when he likes and ben have to work first before going down to maxwell to club. So sad! but for the sake of the money i guess i just have to do some sacrifices.

Ben is Saving up for?

-Louis Vuittion Wallet For 1 for me and 1 for my mother.

-Saving $$ for P.S

-Facial package

-A black Jacket

-Define Lens

-Stripshow for my 21 birthday

Ben is very happy to meet mango and jolene this wednesday, i'll be accompanying mango to work at PC bunk at plaza singapura, free can come and visit me, but hor but hor.. i might be too busy to entertain lei. hais so sad. anyway working there $5/hr earn abit abit den go buy something to make myself happy or should i save? Bleahx like i can save like that. then after that i'm going to meet jolene dear i don't know where got dinner to discuss about helping her with some modeling thing for her new clothesline. i'm not confirm if she will choose me but yup can't wait haha. it's been so long since i last met her now going to meet her like so excited.

As i was saying i found a job at the night safari, doing retail and today after school i'll be going down for an orientation, i wonder what we are going to do, hopefully we get a tour around the place go sightseeing, go inside for FREE! there are 5 retail outlets there and i want to work at BEN N JERRY ice cream!!! i want to EAT ICE CREAM and become fat fat. haha!

i seriously plan to work long for this job but the pay abit low $6, ok la not very low but the working hours is fixed 7 hours so that means 1 day i don't even earn like 50$ thats so pathetic. i calculated that each month i will get roughly 700 dollars. omg 700$!! so little. ><" how like that?

i'll be working with garrick and jeannie, we went for the interview together and it we got in together. Luckily the 5 retail outlets are on the same stretch, we can still see each other all the time. even if we are not working in the same outlet.

Nothing to update le.. if not people say i writing 5000 words essay. -.-

Night Safari pictures____

Wheee~ a new post..

i'm in school again and i'm also blogging again. today's module is so freaking boring.. signal processing.. learning all the different equation which is lke so tough so boring!!! arghh i got a freaking C for last week's grade so shitty lo.

the day's problem so hard!!

The other day, which was like the day before yesterday, if i remember correctly. i went to vivocity with garrick and jeannie, we did alot alot of walking and alot of shopping for clothes but we just have to wait till the great singapore sales which is coming soon on the 27th of May i guess. We had alot of fun there, talking, talking talking and more talking. garrick is always doing silly stuff, thinking he is very cute but BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! lol! anyway just kidding.

At vivo, we walked from shop to shop, browsing through their items, there is so many things i want to buy!!! clothes pants shoes watch and wallet!! arghhh but the S and 11 not enough la hor. $$$$$$ where to get more $$$$$$. i need a job badly but with a job then where is my free time to go out with my friends and most importantly i cannot go clubbing no more unless i want to look like a zombie with dark eye circle which i already have but i don't want it to become darker. but if i got the money from work i can buy eye ring remover from the face shop.

jeannie and me.. walking walking walking..

i went to the face shop there is so many products i want to buy!!! i want to buy the face scrub and the cell renewal thing. the face shoppppp~~~ lalala~ if i was a rich boy lalalalalalala~ if i had all the money in the world if i was a wealthy boy.... i walked pass armani xchange and i want to buy this bag but i don't know how much it is and also at harbourfront center in animal i want to buy this big big bag which cast 200$.

i know that i'll be a very happy boy if i have all the money in the world i would go shopping everyday and i don't even want to go to school. i would ask my friends out for lunch or dinner, accompany me go shopping and shopping and more shopping. i don't like shopping when i have no money makes me sad. however when i'm sad and i buy something it makes me happy. wahahahaha!! buying gift for people to make them as happy as me and i would donate to those needy people. but all this is just a dream. before shopping i want plastic surgery i want to be MR. Perfect. haha~

hmmm. enough of nonsense talk. yesterday in school was also another pretty boring day get to see mr tomato nose, always digging his nose. imagine sticking 2 fingers into each hole individually. so scary man! after school i had my UT aka understanding test 5 questions i know how to answer none of them. i was like diao diao diao.. i was like how how how!!!! then i anyhow bomb from the 6th ppt i didn't even know what i was writing down. talking about this it reminds me that i've gotten a C for my elective favourite module UT. i'm so SAD! i at least expected a B or something.

i've no idea why this new semester i just don't have that vibe to concentrate in class or like put a little effort to study. i just cant seem to find it. i've got a very bad feeling that this semester is going to have a big impact on my overall GPA a big drop~ my PP is still not done i'm so dead.

after school i went down to town and did the usual of sitting around doing nothing and waiting for time to pass so we can go down to maxwell and watch performance. we which includes kenneth, calli and me accompanied addy, warren to go buy make up because it was addy's first time to perform at why not.. wheee i was so excited for him i want to see how hot he can be.

walked to taka then to wisma and then back to cineleisure again to meet weijie and yangyang then off we go down to maxwell. we went to watch show and there was tension in the air, but i don't know anything about it. Mummy was so pretty that night in the wedding dress, mummy no need scared never get to wear wedding dress because u got the experience le. hahaha!

garrick wans the middle one. buy for his birthday!


Uncle garrick on the sampan. row row row your boat gently down the stream...

After so long of inactivty, i finally revive my so called "dead" blog.


i haven't touched my blog for a very long time, i have been wanting to blog but was too lazy and procastination has got the worst out of me. day by day, and soon it became a month plus. now i'm in school and first time in my schooling life i'm blogging in school. i'm having Anatomy and physiology 2! my favourite module.. i got a picture of a skeleton. today we learning about the pelvic bone, fuck man just 1 freaking bone got so much thing to study.

*she touching skelly's skull*

*naked Skelly*

*omg wad is teacher doing with the skeleton*

A month can be considered quite short as time flies, however within this short period of time so much things has happened, i don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing and school stuff have been haunting me, i have yet to submit my Professional Profiling and the deadline is due in 8 days if i do not have it done by then, i have to repeat another year in school. it can be a good thing to cause i can defer my national service by another year and i'll be left idling for a year doing nothing and there is a high chance i might not even be working.

i totally regretted not doing my professional profiling earlier. ARGH! thinking of it makes me want to rip my hair off which i will not as my hair to me is precious.. earlier on my pp i could have just interview any individual and this is so much easier. i could have just interview my mom, but now i have to do a report on a company. awwww so tedious.. 8 days left!!! i have no idea who i'm going to interview i scared due to the rush to make it by the deadline and i take a wrong step and in the end i will fail my pp and in the end all my efforts come to a naught.



My final year project is such a drag, our team till now is still unable to find a suitable sensor for our project and we are at our wits end. i believe in what the sales person has said about our project it is too demanding and it is already available in the market if we can easily do a project similar to that that is in the market then what is it's market value since poly students can even do it. our project is stucked at the same place for almost 5 weeks already i have a very bad feeling about it. i've finished my report but now what we are doing is like the same thing over and over again. we are doing literature review almost all the time and there is no improvement in the practical part, without the sensor we are left helpess as we need to know the voltage which the sensor run on in order to develop the amplifer to amplify the incoming signal to be sent to the DAQ which we have not even buy so the sensor is a very important step for us but we just cant seem to make that first step.



a few days back i went out with garrick to bugis to sell my darling w900i. she too old le 1 year plus already so it's time to let go although i don't really want to but it has been giving me problem and i should trade-in before it loses any more of its value, now using k800 i took from my dad. i sold my darling for 330 and dad gave me 30$ and i had to give him 300$ i want to buy S500 from sony ericsson. it looks so elegant and stylish. me and garrick went to so many different shop to check the highest price they offer for our phone, we went to sim lim square and walk walk checked out those cheapo mp3 players, although it is cheapo, it packs a punch. it has a 3 megapixel camera, games, document reader, picture viewer, mpeg4 viewer and recorder. for 200$ only we plan to buy 1 each.



this reminds me of someone, thinking about it makes me kind of sad.

we used to be close but now we are just normal hi, bye friends..

we seems to have endless things to talk about but now we give each other a cold shoulder.

you used to be unhappy with me being close to other people but now i see the same scenario.

we used to go out together hang out together and have your attention but now your attention is on other people and you rarely set eyes on me anymore.



i told you how i feel, but i was replied with a 'you'll get used to it' i quite surprised you would say that but now you have said that i just have to do as i'm told. i'm sure i'll be able to get used to it. there are a few promises we made with each other that have yet to be fulfilled but nevermind let it all be buried with our past, cause i don't want to think about it anymore. i feel like i'm the second him, now you shoot me when i'm talking. since you already have you own life and your own new group of friends why you even bother what i did in the club. Anyway all good things will come to an end i will not long for it anymore just let it drift away with the ticking of the clock.



anyway yesterday was majong day, after school went to fiona house for 2 round majong. i didn't play at all i was there to sleep only. benji, lynn, fiona, kenneth and jojo played and i ZZZ on the bed then later brian came and followed by shu hui, as for me still continued sleeping, around 12 i took a cab home together with brian, kenneth and jojo home. Benji and lynn left earlier after the first round. i went there eat chocolate and went back to sleep so much fun. LIKE REAL -.-"


Before the majong thing after school, in school i was playing with photoshop edited a few pictures to be uploaded into friendster. while i was browsing through other people's friendster i realised many of them had their pictures so called beautified with photoshop so i had to experiment with mine, hope it doesn't looks so shabby. can view my friendster at www.friendster.com/benb3nben .